Age.

I'm young. I never quite understood the hype about a person's age, never quite got why women always want to be younger, be more 'youthful'. Being young sucks. 

I know, I know, how can I say that, it makes me sound naive, ignorant, yada yada yada. 

Being stuck in between the last stages of your childhood and the first stages of early adulthood really, really sucks. I don't know what I should do with my life, I don't know how I'm going to get there, which college I will go to to get that degree... All I'm riding on is faith. 

It's scary. No-- it's absolutely terrifying.

All I have on me is faith. I don't have the major picked out, I don't have the college picked out, I don't have the money for this college that has yet to be picked out... All I have is the thought that somehow everything will work itself into place, and someday I'll forget about why being young wasn't so great. 

Someday I'll understand the excitement behind my age, and someday, I'll wish I were young again, too. 

Until then though, I'll be biting my nails and holding on tight to faith.